My History

2010-12-07T04:27:00.003+08:00

Today was a great day...
My ex-roommate & I went for Kuala Lumpur International Motor Show (KLIMS) 2010 at PWTC in the afternoon...
The exhibition was awesome...
Many new car vehicles had be introduced in the exhibition...
Even our Proton had their latest design but not in the market yet...
The journey was bad due to heavy jam & raining...
Both of us in the car for around 2 hours before we able to enter the exhibition...
Damn sad for the period time had gone due to this unavoidable incident...

At night, ding had invited me for KTV...
I'm excited to accept the invitation...
After had some song, I started feel something not right at the surrounding....
We started had less conversation between each other...
I feel that they are away from me..
Not sharing the info to me...
Are they still treat me as one of their childhood buddy?
Or I'm just a stranger to them?
Some of they are still ok with me... talk to me.. share with me...
But what happen to others???

I feel so sad for this situation...
What is Friend? Friendship?
Are they care about this friendship?
How do I get close to them? Or let them close to me?
Please show me the answer...........

2010-08-09T19:41:00.003+08:00

Happy moment always passed very fast...
When we heard that you are coming back from US, we are excited...
We wait day by day to see you...
You left us 2 years ago, alone go US for your study...
Now you left us again to continue your study after summer break...
Now all of your buddies back to their own life...
Less outing...
Sleep more...
Fight for the future...
All of us have to wait for 2-3 years later to see you, hang out with you, chat with you...
I'm always miss the moment when we are together...
When you are left, I feel sad...
I feel that I'm losing something important to me...
I feel lost...
I feel bored...
I miss the day during my party in my house...
Hopefully our friendship last till the moment when we still breathe...

2010-08-06T15:26:00.005+08:00

Life is so short...
I getting to know this friend through fb...
He is my brother coursemate & yet we haven't meet up...
He has the same hobby with me - BASKETBALL
He loves basketball very much and he is the founder & captain for his church basketball team...
Few months ago, I promised him that I will go to his place and play with him & I didn't turn up...
Yesterday, I been informed that he has passed away due to heart attack...
He just 20 years old only and why he leave this world so fast????

I was wondering why human's life span getting shorter & shorter?
The first man, Adam lived 930 years, Noah lived 950 years...
And now human's life span average is 60-70 years...

Last week, I had celebrated my birthday with a group of childhood friends...
We had a wonderful time as all of us gather together, drink and chit-chat...
David suddenly tears out...
He still can't let go the relationship between Eunice & himself...
He wanted her back to his life & somehow things happened not in our expectation...
Ah Fu wanna to get drunk but because the next time he has to work so he control himself...
I can see he controlled himself from emo-ing...
He missed Emei so much.... Somehow Emei had forgot about him... I guess)
So am I...
I'm missing you very much...
After finished the party, I wrote the blog with tears...
I had been waiting since the day we start our own personal journey....
Waiting the time to meet you...
Waiting the time to see you smile..
Waiting waiting waiting...
But when we meet up, I don't know have the strength to face you....
I just don't know why I must have the strength to face you... Maybe once you are important to me and suddenly you leave, left a scar in my heart & this scar always remind how much pain that I gone through...
Already been waiting so long, and I still can't get the answer from u?
I don't know my waiting is worth or I just wasting my time to wait...
One day, I might get the answer for all my doubt....

2010-07-26T03:11:00.002+08:00

Today is one of the greatest day n my life...

I had received the one of the greatest gift...

One of the greatest birthday party...

Thank you my family...

Thank you my fellow childhood friends...

Thank you FATHER..

I really miss u the moment when we celebreath my birthday in sunway lagoon..

Do we have the chance together when we back?

I really miss the moment after we finish our class, tuition, sunway lagoon, langkawi...

Can i have those day back?

I REALLY MISS YOU....

Even through we cant together...

Can we meet once again? I REALLY MISS YOU SMILE... YOU LIPS... THE MOMENT WE TOGETHER...

I really sorry for what I did to do.. I know I can't return to the past... But I hope we can do better in the future...

Although we can't be couple but I hope we can be best friend...

Besides my family, buddy wishing me... THE PERSON HOPE I WANT HEAR FROM IS U....

You are the one who pushing me in the aviation world.....

I wish to see you in aviation world....

PLEASE DO MAKE ME DISAPPOINTED ON YOU...

2010-06-22T17:08:00.002+08:00

Wow... Finally I stepped my foot in the LCCT & towards to AirAsia X office for my training..
After waiting for some times, these day had reached..
1st day in the engineering office, 10 of us had been screw up by the duty operation manager - Izwan...
He was asked us a number of question and we couldn't gave him the answer that he wanted..
From 12pm we standed in the office till 2.45pm, and we couldn't have a chance to take a break & have our lunch....

From the LCCT to the enigneering operation room, I had saw many planes and air stewardess..
There are A320, A330, B747, B737, B777...
Seriously there are huge enough...
I remembered when I sitted in the MD-11 cockpit is 3 yrs ago...
The cockpit is awesome...
I wish I have the chance to sit in the MD-11 again..
Some of the air stewardess are beautiful enough...
But they don't even take a look to us..
Because to them we are nothing...
We just trainee & not engineer or pilot... :(

2nd day in AirAsia X..
We report at 9am but the person in charge only come in at 10am..
So all of us take some rest in the crew room...
At 10am, we report ourselves to another person in charge..
At 1st, he had assigned us to the coming aircraft for exposure..
Somehow, Izwan asked all of us enter the office and assigned our shift group..
Cyrus & I was in shift C...
We are going to report ourselves on the friday morning..
And now I going to have holiday again... :)

2010-06-10T16:57:00.006+08:00

Wow... finally I had update my blog...

Recently many things had bother me...

Friendship are the main cause...

I feel that my friendship between my gang of friend in klang and myself are getting far away each other....

Maybe is I spent less time with them because I spend most of my time at Nilai..

Last week I find out David was in relationship problem...

Now he was single but because of he can't accept the fact, he use cigar and liquor to ease all the pain...

This had reflect me...

I remember when I was same situation with him, I couldn't accept it. It's just happened suddenly...

I was suffered most of the time during that period.. (maybe she don't know that moment)

When I got to know David do that to himself, I feel he so naive...

Not the only fish in the sea, there are plenty of fish in the sea...

But I can't tell he that he is naive because I once same with him...

Gosh.. what suppose I'm do to help this buddy?

Jay chow is one of the favourite singer of mine.. His latest song 我落泪。情绪零碎 very meaningful and noted down all the feeling that I go through when I was ending my love.. Love this song so much...

我落泪。情绪零碎 by Jay

地上断了翅的蝶不像自由地蔓延

爱原来更心碎都可以更细节

田野风绕过几条街秋天收获了满地的落叶

于是又一整夜感情的句子都枯萎凋谢

我不想写随手撕下这一页原来是跟离别可以没有结尾

焦距后悔的跟着写于是我把诗折叠

有几重感觉挑一束白玫瑰你将爱退回

我不落泪忍住感觉

分手在起风这个季节

哭久了会累

也只是别人的以为

冷的咖啡我清醒着一再续杯

我落泪情绪零碎

你的世界一幕幕纷飞

门外的蔷薇带刺伤人也很直接

过去被翻阅结局满天的风雪

我不想写随手撕下这一页

原来是跟离别可以没有结尾

焦距后悔的跟着写于是我把诗折叠

有几重感觉挑一束白玫瑰你将爱退回

我不落泪忍住感觉

分手在起风这个季节

哭久了会累也只是别人的以为

冷的咖啡我清醒着一再续杯

我落泪情绪零碎

你的世界一幕幕纷飞

门外的蔷薇带刺伤人也很直接

过去被翻阅结局满天的风雪

Sometimes I was thinking can I get her back to my life? Can I win her heart once again? What if I can win her heart, then what should I do to make her more happy? I have the answer and I will keep it till one day this day has come...

2010-01-02T02:10:00.002+08:00

2010 is here at the moment...
People go for count down & I stay at house & count down...
What a boring celebration for the new coming year...

2009 was great....
Friendship with college friend getting closer & closer...
Last semester, we went for outing quite often...
Become leader in the History Makers in Nilai cell...
Participated the leader retreat twice with HMKL...
One in PD, the others is Ipoh... ( First time went to Ipoh)
Failed in most all the EASA exam that I took. (Passed 2 of 5)
Knew some new friends....

In 2010, I wanna to fullfil these target that I set :

1. Pass the EASA exam at least 3 papers.
2. Graduate by this year, no more extend semester.
3. Get a job in aviation field since 2009 economic crisis.
4. Change myself into a better person.
5. Organize a 21st b'day party.
6. Be a better christian.

Wish all these can come true.. ^^

2009-11-28T00:21:00.003+08:00

On 25th Nov 2009, AME Inaugural Dinner had been organized by a the Aviation Society...
I was one of the committee member of this dinner....
Everyone were enjoyed the nitez... Mr.Kunalan, Mr Selva and my parents had been invited to come for the dinner....
It was a great day... There are the guitar performance by Kanesh... His performance was awesome, I was enjoyed it...
Then we had the video which prepared by Vincent... It was nice to watch because it contained our sweet memory from the 1st semester till 6th semester....

After the dinner, all of us have own activities... The group of Indian went to Suresh's house to have a drink session while the rest went to KK's house to continue enjoy our nite...
Unfortunately we have to back to college after we received a complaint from the neighbour...
But this not stop us to have our great till we went to Ben's room....
We had play Truth or Dare inside his room, and enjoyed the game...

Later on, the group of Indian came to Ben's room and we have a great moment when they came...
A Hours later I feel too tired & sleepy then back to the room have a rest....
I have back with a bottle of liquor which I bring becauseI don't feel wanna continue drinking & the bottle haven't open yet....
I never know that because of my leaving had cause a big problem occur...
The group of Indian were so angry because of my leaving without inform them plus the liquor that I bring doesn't share with them and just bring back to the room...

Sam and the rest of friends were having a tough day with them...
I won't figure out till I have asked someone about it...
At Now I doesn't know what they thinking right now...
Some of them still keep it in the heart...

Why they wanna take this matter so serious?
For me, it was just a small problem only...
We are having the fun & because of my leaving, they start make the trouble out...
Come on, we are not small kid anymore....
Don't because of a small matter then make each of us become 'enemy'

2009-10-21T00:33:00.003+08:00

It had been days I have no update my blog... Recently I was too lazy to update my blog due to the short sem & final sem... Today I been order by Kanesh to become the leader in the cell group of the HM Nilai... This was the 1st time I become the leader of this small group... I had the experience to become class leader, captain of the basketball team but I have no experience in this cell group leader and I have been ask to become leader at the last minute (Yesterday)... Gosh.... I don have the sufficient time to prepare it & lucky I got the help from Cyrus... He was good leader honestly.... He help me to lead the group... He has the experience for it because he was the leader of the Petra youth group in his church... Today, there are 3 new members - Claire, Edeh & Rhona came to joined us... They are from Africa... Rhona was my group mate... She was kind, friendly... She has shared about the herself, & the culture of the country...

Thursday is the 1st assessment... Time passed so fast.. Already pass 2 weeks from the day start the new sem... Now just left 5 weeks to go before final exam... I feel that this sem pass to fast & insufficient for me to enjoy my last sem... The result from the MAS is coming soon & I was wondering what the answer I will get... Selected or Rejected... There are a lot issues need to think before making the final decision... I wish I can make the correct decision for my future & won't feel regret of my decision...

2009-09-14T01:53:00.002+08:00

Finally the final exam over...
But this doesn't mean I can relax & enjoy the holiday...
EASA exam is fall on today....
Although I have prepare for the exam but I still don have the confident to pass it due to this is the 1st module 5 I goin to sit & no pass year question plus experience for this paper....
3 Module I goin to sit at this time... Module 5, 8, 9
Module 9, I hav the confident to pass but the rest of the 2 module I'm afraid of it....

Ytd I received a news from my frenz regarding the Vacancy for Trainee Jr. Technician in MAS....
This training program is 2 yrs & nid to bonded to serve MAS for at least 5 Yrs....

Currently I doin my diploma plus EASA exam in NUC & I still around 1-2 semester to graduate & start the work....
But this news had shock me... My dad always encourage me to join Trainee Aircraft Maintenance Engineering (TAME) program tat offered by MAS or AirAsia...
And I rejected my dad due to my bad result in spm...
Now the situation had changed, I hav been in this engineering more than 2 yrs & yet I'm able to apply it although I haven't finish my diploma course...

Now the problem is should I give up my diploma course which left half yr to finish & join this jr.tech program or I should finish my diploma then oni go apply for the post....
I was confusing.... Can someone tell me what should I do?
This is my future and I noe no one can determine my future except myself....
I still left around 1 week to consider be4 I submit the application letter to them....

Hope I can make the decision wisely & ll not regret for the decision tat I make...

2009-08-31T18:47:00.002+08:00

Wow... A wonderful trip to PD has plan by HM KL ytd...
HM KL & HM Nilai are joining this trip....
I wanna to thanks them bcz of them I finally have the chance to sit banana boat... Awesome man the banana boat... I kinda like it so well...
During worship session, I have drop my tear... I were touching & feel peaceful for tat moment...
I feel very relax & worshiping him with full of my heart...
Soon Yew had shared the word of God..
He asked what is FAITH?
Do faith important to us?
What happen if we doesn't have faith?

Hebrew 11.1 Faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.
We must always put faith whenever we do things...
No matter there is the result onot when we do sumthing, we just nid to put faith on it...
Faith is very important to christian...
Faith is believe...
We nid to believe that God is exist... God will always with us... God will help us... God will save us from darkness...

Hebrew 11.40 God had planned something beeter for us so that only together with us would they be made perfect.

2009-08-28T02:23:00.002+08:00

Revision week going to pass soon...
4 days later start final exam...
1st paper at 2/9 which is lce & Rain Protection at 12pm...
So far I haven't complete 1 subject or even 1 book...
This few days I were keep enjoying my holiday (actually revision week is for revision)....
In this memorable month, several good & bad memories had created...
I were glad meet a brunch of new frenz through HM & CF...

Nowadays I start think one side... Didn't the other side...
This has make me frustrate...
Lost the confident when do something...
I just can't accept the lost...
I wanna win all the time..
Wanna be the best out of the best...
But I just can't achieve everything...
I just a human & got limitation on my ability...
20 yrs, very little things oni I achieve....
I wanna achieve more & more...
I have to push myself to the limit so that I can prove myself I able to do it...
The oni thing I lack is motivation...

Nothing is Impossible

2009-08-20T01:44:00.005+08:00

AirAsia CEO, Datuk Seri Tony Fernandes say "Be a positive thinker. Never have a chip on your shoulder. When you get up in the morning, just say you want to be the best. You only live once. Don't have negative energy."

Recently I have think many things like my career, education, relationship...
Bcz of these, I hardly to concentrate myself on my study....
Whenever I free, I will think all these...
Even in the class, when I find out the lesson wasn't interesting then I will start thinking it...
I had been talked some of frenz abt it...
All of them tell don't think abt it...
Focus on the study, the rest issue later oni think it....
Honestly sometime I lack of motivation, sometime I were full of motivation...
Sometime I really don understand what am I doing and what I want...
A month ago, I met a gal who in my college...
I got attracted...
I have try hard to communicate with her but hardly to communicate with her...
Distance btw us getting far away...
She are the women who attract me after end wit a relationship 3 yrs ago...
I have no idea what topic can chat...
Whenever I have topic, she unable chat with me...
I dono what she busy for...
Although her's msn was ON, she was unavailable to chat wit me...
Do she suit for me?
I dono...
I have no nothing abt her...
Haiz.... I dono what to do...
What I can do is WAIT for the suitable time..

2009-08-17T21:34:00.006+08:00

Murphy's law states that "If anything can go wrong, it will". Believe it...
Today having a football match at MPN (Majlis Perbandaran Nilai).
This is final match btw Group 5 & Group 2.

Be4 the game start...

We start the game confidently.
During the 10 min game, we play well.
But suddenly everything go wrong. Group 2 start the attacking.
As a goalkeeper, I have try my best save alot of shot.

Half time whistle has blow, we taking a rest & prepare for the other half time game.
At this moment, everything go wrong.
I fail to save a simple shot by the opponent.
Bcz of my wrong judgment, I were fail to save 5 shot.
In the end, we lost 5-0....
This was embrassing... How come lost 5-0 to junior...

The Group 2 were good enuff to be champion..
They play very well... Well organize the game... Well passing... Well finishing...
I was make some mistake.. My goal kick was too bad... The ball can't fly to half of field...

After the match, I were totally down & disappoint..
My brain were blank off...
Can't think anythings after the defeat...

I wish I can rematch the game...
If can, I surely will perform very well & will not have any mistake...

2009-08-14T01:23:00.004+08:00

13.8.2009 was wonderful day. It seen like GOD plan for it after having a stressful exam on the monday & tuesday. Ernest, Cyrus, Yan Yee, Constance & Me went to Mid Valley for a movie show - G.I.Joe : The Rise of Cobra. After the show, we went to Lock Out Point, Restaurant Gasoline to have our dinner.

Before dinner, we r enjoying the view of K.L. & the environment of the place. It was a nice place for couple & a group of frenz to hang around. The place was peaceful & with fresh air. Once we finish the photo session at the tower of the Lock Out Point. we heading Restaurant Gasoline to have our meal. The Black Pepper Chicken Chop was below my expectation. But the restaurant service was good, I was enjoying my meal at there bcz it give me a peaceful, relax, nice view, fresh air.

Once finish the meal, we having some conversation till 12am. We realized that we nid back to college due to have class on next day. Ernest, Cyrus & myself having class at 10am so it should be no problem for us but for Yan Yee & Constance, they having class at 8am so we nid back college to rest. During the journey to college, the 2 lady was asking us some question about what kind of gals we r interest.

3 of us have different opinion. For myself, I wanna a gal who can communicate with me all the time, same hobbies especially swimming, sharing each otherwith own talents, lovely, take care of the house, understanding. Then Yan Yee ask what is the 1st impression when meet gal. For me, I will observer their attitude & attire. Yan Yee say I more on gals intension.

Today the LEO horoscope said that "Don't give the wrong impression. Keep the thoughts and feelings you have for someone a secret. Time is on your side and taking things slowly will work to your advantage. Someone is watching and waiting to hook up with you as well". I totally agree of it. This seen like the clue which give by heavenly father - Jesus Christ.

I was enjoying the moment we hang out together. It was awesome. Since college life, I never having this kind of moment even through at secondary skul time. Hopefully we can having this kind of moment at other place.

2009-08-12T02:01:00.006+08:00

What a stressful & tired days I have gone through. Since sunday, I don't have a good sleep till today. Monday & Tuesday was the exam. Bcz of my laziness, I only start my revision the day be4 exam.

The time period was limited, this make me can't prepare very well for the exam. I was blaming myself not paying attention to my study. Final exam is coming soon and EASA exam held on the week after final exam. This time I not sure I able to pass all the EASA paper that I going to sit. As well as the final exam.

Recently I lost my appetite. Sometime I can't stop myself to think nonsense stuff. Actually what are the problems I facing? I also dono what are problems I facing. I have spoke with some of my frenz, they say I was think too much. Maybe is, in education I was over pressure myself.

I admit it. Sometime I was over pressuring myself. But not only this issue making me feel miserable. Career, relationship btw male & female, finance all this are the cause make me think so much on it. Even when I was sleep, I still think abt it.

Is there any way to make me don't think abt it? I was wondering....

2009-08-08T13:23:00.002+08:00

Gosh... What is my mind thinking now?
I cant concentrate on what I focusing.
Sometimes I ll lost my direction..
Sometimes I ll think more than I expected.
Just hardly to focus a task & complete it perfectly.

From small kid, I was just can't complete it perfectly. Like swimming, basketball, football, taekwondo, education, etc..
Till now in the college, I still same. Actually what's wrong wit me?
I can't find the answer.

Ytd was very tired. From morning 9am till 10.30pm full of activity. I don even have enuff time for me to rest although in btw got break time but still insufficient time for me to have a good rest.

I wish I could find the answer tat I wan all the time.

2009-08-06T09:52:00.006+08:00

This week was awesome.

I was injured my shin during last monday match. In the beginning, I was totally out of the game for the MONDAY's game. I was not fit enuff to play for it but my teammate keep force me to play and I decide to play with my injury. Praise GOD, I was well perform for the match. I have save 2 left btm killer ball which is confirm will goal. Luckily I have proper training during training session. The shot was so close to goal. At first I thought I was unable to save it, and I DONE it. So happy when saving the goal. But at the first half, due to my small mistake I let them score 1 goal.

Second half whistle blow off, we start with new style of playing. We want to win this game to proceed to Final. So at last we got a penalty from our striker and we score it.

Final whistle is blow off. The most important time have come - penalty shoot-out. I was so nervous when shoot-out has come. I was weak on saving the penalty. Once again thanks GOD, I manage save the last goal to win the match. In the end, I was MAN OF THE MATCH.

On tuesday, Cell Group History Makers Nilai have station game in the campus. I was in charge being 1 of the station master. I had seen most of the people who join it are happy. They are enjoying themselves for the game. After finish my station game, I go to look for Aaron who also is a station master. I find out that KENT, the leader was funny. His action was so funny till me and Aaron can't stop laughing all the time till they finish their mission.

Back to the start point, the first arrival reach the point are Ernest, William, Christina, Jeffrey, Daphne. Unfortunately they got the punishment. They was acting the story btw Kent & Ovinis. KENT was unhappy about the drama so he leave the room. In the end, I was happy & satisfied with this event.

On Wednesday, I attending the Christian Fellowship NUC. There is a treasure hunt event which Sheryn was in charge of the game. So we separate into 2 team then we start out game. We had walked around the college to look for clue and answer. Once we finish our mission we back to MPH (Multi Purpose Room) to end the game. We won it.
Me, Joy, Aaron, and Sheryn was talking about HM cell & CF. Both of this body are not balance with the number of members. Supposedly CF members should more than HM Cell but due to some reason HM Cell are more members than CF.

This is political issue. Me and Aaron give some advise to Joy. And CF and HM Cell nid to discuss about it. After the conversation with them, I have join Kent, Yan Yee, David, Ai San and Constance. They are chit-chatting with David. They wan know more about David. Around 10,30pm, all of us back to the room.

At this nite, I have taking my first step to ask her out from her room to have some conversation before she sleep. It was a good beginning. Hopefully there will somethings happen for it.

2009-07-28T22:39:00.002+08:00

EASA exam result was released on this day. I was took 2 subjects during last semester - Maths & Electronic Fundamental. Math pass but Electronic Fail. Kns, I was wasted RM400 each paper but I managed to pass 1 subject only. Maybe I was put not much effort on the study for the paper, and some of the important noted I have forget.

The worst things are I already sat for 8 papers but I only pass 1 full module & 1 sub module. The rest I was failed.

Mod 1 (Maths) - PASS
Mod 2 (Physics) - FAIL
Mod 3 (Electrical Fundamental) - FAIL
Mod 4 (Electronic Fundamental) - FAIL
Mod 5 (Digital Technique) - Goin to take this semester
Mod 6 (Material & Hardware) - FAIL
Mod 7 (Maintenance Practice) - Haven't take
Mod 8 (Basic Aerodynamic) - FAIL
Mod 9 (Human Factor) - MCQ FAIL, Essay - PASS
Mod 10 (Air Legislation) - MCQ FAIL, Essay - FAIL
Mod 11 (Aeroplane Aerodynamic) - Haven't take
Mod 15 (Gas Turbine Engine) - Haven't take
Mod 17 (Propeller) - Haven't take

2009-07-13T22:34:00.006+08:00

Victory! Victory! Victory! Today having a football match group 5 vs group 4. Group 5 win 4-1. There was a big victory. I was having a mistake to let a goal. I suppose stand near to the goal post but I was stand too front of the goal post. The ball was kicked with strong, fast, curve angle and I was unable to reach the position in time to stop the ball.

I was only able to touch the ball but unfortunately I can't save it. Because of my mistake I was let 1 goal in although win with 4-1.

Pasindu score 2 goals, Shamir - 1 goal, Kavin - 1 goal.

This result was make us top in group B. Group B have 3 team which are group 3, group 4, group 5.

Group 3 thrash out Group 4 with 2-1.

Hopefully next week match against group 3 can win them by many goals.

2009-07-10T00:24:00.005+08:00

It was a tired day after had class at 3.00pm-5.00pm, shark's swimming club AGM at 5.00pm, 24 festival drums (24 节令鼓) training at 8.oopm till 12.00am.

For me, this fifth semester was the most tiring semester. It is bcz I having football tournament & represent my group - group 5 as a first choice goalkeeper. Then having 24 festival drums training for the coming performance for the college porm night & orientation night. Swimming lesson at putrajaya for twice per week.

Besides these activities, I had taken 6 subject for my course which nid alot of study. College & EASA (external) examination are around the corner. Now every tuesday & wednesday have to attend Christian Fellowship (CF) & Cell Group.

Suddenly all this stuff come to me without any preparation. I was tired & have not enuff sleep. Bcz of this, I was easily fall asleep in the class although have enuff sleep. I was afraid my body can't take this heavy load & pressure.

I believe that all this activities are god's plan. He wan me do more active rathar than stay at the room for do ntg.

2009-06-26T09:03:00.003+08:00

It was a lucky day went to GE Engine Service Malaysia for visiting. Normally, this chances to visit GE was slim but because of my hard work for proposing these trip to Mr.Kunalan since previous semester, finally I have the chance to visit GE yesterday with my classmate.

I can say the visit was good but had some disappointed. Good side is we had the opportunity to visit since currently we having Gas Turbine Engine & Engine Lubrication System classes. It was a great exposed to those component & at least we had come to see real engine system besides just look it into the picture which shown by lecturer.

The facilities manager said that we are lucky enough today because there is a birdstrike engine from B747 at the workshop to do the repair work. The blade was made by titanium and the birdstirk was strong enough to break one of the blade. It was so scary if a larger bird to hit to the engine. The engine might turned off and disaster maybe happen.

Remember one of my lecturer say 1 turbine blade of turbine engine was cost about 1 Proton Wira. Now the turbine blade of B747 was cost abt 1 Proton Perdana. The number turbine blade engine of B747 is 38. Imagine 1 engine of B747 was having 38 Proton Perdana. And this was just the turbine blade cost. Other component like gearbox, cooler, etc haven't counted.

Overhaul an engine wasn't cheap. For B747 was cost abt USD3-4 million. B737 was cost abt USD1-2 million. Because of the price, the staff at GE was so rich. Even though ojt at there, they will pay us RM200 per month. Some company will not pay at all and the worst is MAS which need to pay them for ojt.

The disappointed part is the engine test. We was unable to watch with our own eyes but only can image due to they had the test run a day before we came. So sad to heard that. But I still happy to come GE for visit. It was a nice place to visit for those who just started their engine courses.

2009-06-16T21:57:00.002+08:00

What is passion? Based on the dictionary, it mean strong amorous or desire. Do I have passion enuff to archieve as LAME (Licence Aircraft Maintenance Engineer)? If I have pass enuff, then why I keep failing on the exam? 2 weeks ago, I was sat for my Air cond subject which I failed during the final exam on last semester. Today the result for the resit so I went to OAR to collect my resit result. What was suprise me is REPEAT the subject again. WTF I was so depressed at that time bcz I nid to retake the subejct again which I don even have sufficient time to let me do it. Its bcz I just remain 1 more semester which is short semester before I leave and the semester will have to take 5 of the remaining subeject.

Today I went for the Cell Group which lead by Kanesh. The topic that we discuss is PASSION. This topic is quite interesting. He was said whenever we do somethings we nid to have passion. Eg. To get a good result during the exam, we nid to put alot effort which call as passion. So I was asking myself do I put alot effort on my study? I was keep playing computer all the time & spend very less time on my study. Do I really wake up from the dream which I had started during form 3? I was non-stop to keep dreaming all the time. I was dream to have a big banglo, luxary car, alot of money to spend, travel around the world.

Next monday & tuesday will be my first assessment in this new semester. Hopefully this time I able to answer all the question correctly & score very well.

2009-06-15T22:47:00.003+08:00

Time had passed very fast. 3 years had passed since graduted from secondary school at 2006. In these years, I had gained alot knowledge which I can't get it during secondary school time. Remember the time at the school, I was always sleep in the sleep once I reach the school even through I slept well the day before go to school.
Currently I manage to change some of my bad habit - sleep in the class. Sometimes will sleep in the class although have enough rest due to the class was too boring till feel sleepy.

The moment at secondary school, I use to skip the class although I was in the school. If friends are inviting me to skip, I will follow them. But now in the college, I can't do it. I was train not to do it because it will affected my performance in the class & my impression to the aviation industry. Alot of things like skip the class, sleep in the class, play basketball from afternoon to evening had been stop after finish secondary school. It was a very sad things to me.

My first love was during form 4. That time I was a newbies to love. I was unable to take care the relationship & too jeolousy. Until the time I met Suanne then I was learned how to care of it. But I was not mature enough to understand it. During the time with Suanne, I was happy although we had alot of arguement & disagreement. But it was most happy time I had. And now she was at Australia & having relationship with a China Boy. I think it was good to him to get out the stressful, painful day with me. Actually I was regret to let her go away. If the day I was not gave up on her, I think now we might be having a different chapter in our story. Sometimes I will think about her.

In these 3 years alot happy & sad things had happened. Now I willing to see what will happen in the next 5 years in my life.

2009-06-06T15:02:00.003+08:00

What is MONEY? Can someone explain this word for me? Why MONEY play a important role in life? Without MONEY, was it very hard to survive? Yesterday I had some arguement with David just because of RM5 car petrol. Am I childish to argue this matter?

He was sms me to ask me whether wanna tumpang Ru Yen's car for paying RM5 to him. I was just use some 'dirty word' to reply the msg. I knew it that was too over for that msg when the wasy I reply. Just because of RM5, had a small mater conflict with him. And yesterday both of us was seldom to talk each other. He was not talking with me until I had some word to him.

He was asking me survive at Klang with RM350 are sufficient onot? For me, yes. It was sufficient for me to survive in klang because I no nid to worry abt food,transportation, & miscellaneous bill eg' electric, water, phone bill. Those stuff my parents will take care of it.

But for him, his salary is more than RM1200. He no nid worry abt hse rented bill, sometime those miscellaneous bill have paid by his bro. So that mean he just nid to pay for the food & entertainment oni & even he doesn't have car to work, & his frenz will fetch him. So that mean the amount of salary should be sufficient for him.

Almost all the time say not enuff money la. Why not enuff to spend? If you spend less on yr 'clubbing' activities then will be enuff for u. You can cut short the activities from 1 week twice to 1 week once. One times go to clubbing nid to spend at least RM50. RM50 are enuff for at least 2 days to spend.

Sometime I know I was too over & used 'dirty word' to describe somethings. This things have cause me having distand btw me & my frenz. Sometimes is very hard to control my emotion. Bad temper is my weakness & bcz of tis I hardly communicate with some of my frenz. Once I feel unhappy for certain things, I express my feeling with improper manner. Hopefully I can control my temper in the future.

2009-05-20T20:38:00.001+08:00

Remembering the Forgotten Mechanic

Through the history of world aviation
many names have come to the fore
Great deeds of the past in our memory will last,
as they're joined by more and more.

When man first started his labor
in his quest to conquer the sky
he was designer, mechanic and pilot
and he built a machine that would fly
but somehow the order got twisted,
and then in the public's eye
the only man that could be seen
was the man who knew how to fly

The pilot was everyone's hero,
he was brave, he was bold, he was grand,
as he stood by his battered old biplane
with his goggles and helmet in hand.
To be sure, these pilots all earned it,
to fly you have to have guts.
And they blazed their names in the hall of fame
on wings with bailing wire struts.

But for each of these flying heroes
there were thousands of little renown,
and these were the men who worked on the planes
but kept their feet on the ground.

We all know the name of Lindbergh,
and we've read of his flight of fame.
But think, if you can, of his maintenance man,
can you remember his name?

And think o four wartime heroes,
Gabreski, Jabara, and Scott.
Can you tell me the names of their crew chief?
A thousand to one you cannot.

Now pilots are highly trained people,
and wings are not easily won.
But without the work of the maintenance man,
our pilots would march with a gun.
So when you see mighty jet aircraft
as they mark their way through the air,
the greased stained man with a wrench in his hand
is the man that put them there.

Anonymous

2009-05-19T21:36:00.002+08:00

Today is the 2nd day of 5th semester in NUC. Time pass very fast. 5th semester have come & remaining 1 more semester to leave the college for on job training. Untill now I haven't complete 1 EASA module. So sad...

My memory power getting poor. Nowadays hardly to remember things after learn it especially education stuff. Dono what cause these problem happened. Izit because spend too much time on gaming & entertainment? Or bother somethings else.

I was wondering what is my future. Am I success to be an aircraft engineer? Or I will just be a mechanic or even technician?

Be a single for 3 years d. Sometime feel wanna have a partner with me but had think alot issue e.g. Do I have enuff time for her? Do I ready for a new relationship? Do I really realize my previous mistake & ready to correct it?

Really confuse & had lost direction. Is there any solution to solve all the problem I facing? Or I am the oni one who oni can save myself?

2009-04-30T17:46:00.002+08:00

Yesterday went for a movie title "X-Men Origin - Wolverine".
Actually past 2 weeks, I edi watch it by downloaded from dygod.com.
When I watch it that time, the graphic was suck.
U can see it those use computer's software effect on the movie.
Not like the nice & good graphic show on the screen in the cinema.
The movie start at 11pm finish at around 12.30am.

After the movie, my frenz & I contiune our as usual activities - DOTA at Sino Net.
During the games, there is no fun at all. Why?
Bcz when oppenent got killed then they leave.
N their technique on the hero was suck. So easy to kill & no challenge at all.
Why nowadays DOTA have born out so many noob? Where is the pro goin?

HAHA... Very happy bcz MAN UTD won 1-0 over Arsenal by John O'Shea's wonder goal during corner.

2009-04-22T11:22:00.002+08:00

2009-04-06T16:48:00.003+08:00

3rd assessment's result was released today. I was not surprise at all because I know what study level am I. But there is 1 subject I was unhappy is Cabin Furnishing. I have done 3 rounds of revision and yet I only manage to pass it. I realize that I wasn't understand from what I have study.

After class, Mr.Omar call me up and was talk with me personally. I was so afraid that he will scold me angry me for my unacceptable result. Luckily, he just advice me, motivate me due to he & my dad are close friend. Besides that, he also say that I was no different with those keep skip the class. Because my study level are same with them. So sad to heard that. My dad want he help me to improve my study. I understand their care on me. But I cant find what happend to me since my study getting dropped since SPM.

From 8am, I having heavy flu till cant concentrate what lecturer had taught. Although I having my medicine but it seen like useless at all. Hoping this 'irritating' flu will cure by itself.

2009-04-01T00:40:00.002+08:00

Yeah... 3rd assessment have been finish. Now just waiting for final exam only. After 4 days of revision, I manage to answer most of the question but there are some question I can't answer & only can depend on luck for those question that I don't know to answer.

After I have playing basketball during evening, I having a painful headache which I can't stand it at all. I have eat a panadol but still can't cure it. Then I remember my father's word. He ask me to faith to God, believe him. So I decide to believe him & pray for healing. 2 hours later, I no longer headache. God is miracle, if we believe him, he sure will answer our prayer.

2009-03-24T22:16:00.008+08:00

Today was an unlucky day bcz EASA eam result was release this morning and I get 70% only for mod 4 ( Electronic Fundamental). 1 more question then I can pass ( 20 question only & passing mark 75%). During the exam week, after I have done all the answer, I found out I have answer 5 wrong question. But I can't believe that I was wrong another 1 more question.

Haiz... Now have to pay RM400 for re-sit the mod 4 again. Why I keep fail? My life full of failure e.g.

I FAIL in all my EASA exam except mod 9 ( Human Factor - Essay pass)
I FAIL in my sport. None of them ( basketball, swimming, football, teakwondo, badminton) was success
I FAIL in my education. Keep get low mark & none of it pass with flying colour.
I FAIL in my leadership.
I FAIL to having a sweet & long term relationship.
I FAIL to change my bad habit.
I FAIL to improve my characteristic.

FAIL FAIL FAIL... When only I can success? When I only be a engineer if my result still keep below 75%?

2009-03-17T19:02:00.000+08:00

Painful. My body can't stand the pain after having jog around the NUC's lake & playing basketball. During the game, I suddenly feel my body going to limit & the reaction & movement start getting slower, slower & slower. When I jump up, suddenly the sign of cramp have come to my hand then to the leg.

After I stop the game, substitute a player for me. I find the difficultly to walk back to my room. I walk slowly & slowly to the room & finally reach it. I was too long didn't go for exercise & sport. All the muscle already weak like an old man.

Cramping was painful & need sometime to get back to normal.

2009-03-17T01:56:00.000+08:00

I was wondering how to make you more happy with chat with me & feel safe if I invited u go for a date. When I ask you to have drink or watch movie at Aeon Bukit Tinggi, you will reject me & give a reason - Scare. I know we know each other through msn & not long but I was kindly to invite you & didn't malice to you.

Just hope you can give me a chance to know better about you..

2009-03-12T11:02:00.000+08:00

Have been wait for more than 1 yr for the facilities (hydraulic, electrical lab, engine bay) Finally it goin to finish contruction... I believe it will complete by end of April..

Hope it really can finish it. So that we can exposed more component rather than go Dnest, Subang for do nothing at there..

2009-03-04T18:33:00.000+08:00

At last, I hav finish my 2nd test. 3 nitez in the row din hav good slp. After the last paper, myself look like "zombie" "Ai Si Beh Si". During the test, alot careless mistake hav done. I think is bcz my preparation not enuff, do the revision last minute.

After test, nid to go class. So cham. At class cant concentrate at all. Wan slp but not dare to slp. The worst part is nid to attent Airframe Structure class for 4 hrs. WTF... Luckily the lecturer giv us alot break time.

When left half an hour class, the class hav end but the lecture 'yi yi cam cam'. Talk alot crap (actually is motivation us). Haiz... in my whole life edi listen all those motivation's word. Till now still listen for it.

2009-02-25T01:19:00.000+08:00

Actually wat is my life target? I have been dreaming to become an LAE(licence Aircraft Engineer) for 3 yrs. But now my knowledge n result are suck... Everytime I tell myself study more harder n look for more info but I was lazy to do it. I rather use the time go play comp.game & watch movie. WTF... die la like tat wasting the time....

Planning go to oversea (Japan / England) be4 30yrs old but dono tis plan can be success onot... Just remaining 5 of 13 EASA paper n I must pass it but I didn't hav the confident to pass it le. Edi 8 of 13 I hav fail it... Hoping I can get better result when I go for re-sit the paper la ^^

Nx Monday goin to having 2nd test liao.. Nowadays my course ll hav test every 2-3 week.
Sien & die liao lo hav to do revision like hell... Wish my result ll be better than previous test la^^

2009-02-03T19:07:00.001+08:00

After see Suanne friendster's photo realize tat she is getting more pretty than 3 yrs ago. Suddenly feel regret tat let her go 3 yrs ago. Y i so stupid dowan to wait it n cant patient wit the problem tat we face yrs ago. Now she hav bf from china n lok like both of them r happy wit their relationship. Today chat wit her, find out tat she haven't complete her homework be4 come back to m'sia for holiday and now she hav problem for not complete it in time. I feel wanna to scold her but I no longer her bf anymore n cant give her advise. Now oni can tell her slowly do. 3 yrs hav pass d i still holding the feeling to her. Dono she still noe it onot? Do i still hav the chance to wit her be lover onot?

2009-01-31T20:00:00.000+08:00

Y life so boring? Every week go Sino Cafe to play dota, cs, etc... Play till 1am-2am oni back home sleep. Sino sino sino... go till bore d. Got other activities beside sino onot? Really hope to get a gud result n graduate soon so tat go work n earn alot money. Lucky my holiday is goin to finish soon. 2moro goin back college to study. Haiz, my desirable not strong enuff n cause me less courage to study more hard. Hope there is sumthings can make me more courage to study hard.

2009-01-29T13:11:00.000+08:00

Sienz de Chinese New Year. No place to go. Everyday 'sino' from evening till nitez then gamble. Tis kind of life just like last year de CNY. Nothing special during CNY. Feel like CNY have no meaning for me anymore. Want to go other place holiday but transport got problem n shortage of money.

2009-01-09T22:37:00.002+08:00

2mr goin to hav EASA exam module 4. But I in playing mood but no study mood at all. Wtf.. How can I do revisio9n wit tis kind of mood? 2o question for 25 minute. Only can wrong 5 question, stressful leh.... Laptop is goin factory for repairing for 2 weeks. Without laptop, I total freak out, dono wat to do without it.. Hopefully laptop got back next week la so tat I ll not bore at all.. Hoho...(bcz hav alot movie n game waiting for me)

2008-12-24T23:40:00.000+08:00

Sienz de Christmas Eve. Already confirm goin to Bar Celona to celebrate Xmas n transport also comfirm but last minute tell me the car is full. Wat the fuck!!!! I hate of it. Wat kind of frenz like tis? Am I treat my frenz not good? Y sometime they wan treat me bad? Whenever they nid help I sure help them if I can but when i nid help although they noe they can help but refuse to help me. (Tis is wat I feel) Why they want to do like tis? FRIEND, wat is tis word mean? Am I too good to them? Frenz suppose help each other but some of them just noe use their fren to do sumthings tat they wan. After using n acheieve wat they wan, they ll leave their fren just like Yuan Qing. When he lonely n boring during his holiday break, he ll find me ask me whether got go Sino o watch movie. After his holiday finish, he has disappear n dono where he go.

2008-12-01T19:31:00.000+08:00

Wow what a tired day.. 3 days in row sleep late nite n wake up early.. Tis morning hav done maintenance practice A. The paper was easy n I just use 20 min to finish it. The exam start at sharp 9am - 10.25am. But nid can out from the exma hall at 10am. Walao... nid to wait for 40 min more.. Wait till wan be mad le.. Tired & hungary time. After exam till wan meet wit the Head of Department (HOD) regarding the registration form regarding EASA exam.. Shit.... Only can back at 12pm... After finish lunch hav a gud rest.. Now feel fresh after a gud rest.

2008-11-30T08:55:00.000+08:00

2moro is final exam. I was lazy & no mood to do my revision at all.. Arghhhhhhh, scare ll fail my theory of flight & basic electronic paper. I quite weak on the both paper. Fcuk, how to pass the paper?????? Yesterday was happy bcz hav a very chatting wit 3 classmate who stay in a same apartment. Hav some jokes n MCD in the midnite.. Next semes, there ll not such enjoyable day anymore bcz they goin to move out the other place n no stay together. It was hardly tagether each other till late nite...

伤心的一天

2008-11-13T21:59:00.000+08:00

今天不知道为什么会有那么多伤心的事发生。首先EASA考试成绩已公布，除了Human factor - essay 以外，所有的科目是fail。我有把握的科目竟然没pass, 反而每把握的human factor - essay pass. 接着，Aviation society 我花了很多精神已时间在筹备AGM (Annual General Meeting)，结果得到的是我不想看到结局。怎么今天那么倒霉？一连串不开心的事情发生在同一天，同时间！！！

End....

2008-11-10T19:38:00.000+08:00

Finally the fuking test 3 have finish. Now the most headache is final exam at this coming december. After the final I can celebrate X'mas happily. Unfortunately I need to prepare more for the Electronic Fundamental EASA paper on January. It is fuking hard bcz it was my weakest subject. Hard to understand the theory. Hopefully I can go through the exam wit gud result.

Preparing 3rd Exam.......

2008-11-09T23:28:00.000+08:00

Tml is the last exam be4 final. Feel lazy to do revision n wan to watch movie n play games. 4 subject in 1 day. Feel so pressure for it bcz i hav to get more than 15 out of 20 so that final exam I can relax abit. Haiz.... study this Aircraft amintenance have to go through alot of examination n need study alot plus alot knowlegde is require for it. If not ll be abolish by other smart ppl. Just hope I can get a high score for it.

Boring holiday...

2008-10-05T23:26:00.000+08:00

have a 1 week break for the raya week. The life during the break was so fuking boring. Dunno wanna to do wat. Just stay at home facing laptop, watch drama series, playing gg & fm. Nitez times go sino n mamak. When we get older, the life getting more boring. Really boring like hell since JJ go to US.

life of dance

2008-09-03T22:11:00.000+08:00

today goin for the dance workshop organized by the college's dance & event club..
i have gone throught the ball room dance, hip hop & popping...
Ball room dance have 5 type of dance. Samba, latin
Hip hop is a street dance n find it hard to catch the timing...
Popping le is the hardest for this session... It require a strong muscle n good timing the rthym of the song....
I have register the popping class..
Just hope tat i can fully control my body n learn to catch a good timing for it....

Tired...

2008-08-31T12:10:00.001+08:00

Tired tired tired....
This semester have make me feel tired...
everyday study from 8am-5pm...
tired like hell...
tired to study... tired to participate college activities...
how to 'tahan' till dec????
just wan hav a nice rest...
beside tired sumtimes feel lonely...
dono wan find who to talk abt it..
not dowan find a person to talk....
is there is no suitable ppl to talk abt wat i think...
after graduate from secondary skul, life start very sienz...
wat can i do so tat my life ll become better??

1st blog....

2008-08-18T23:09:00.000+08:00

This is my 1st blog.... actually i have no idea wan to write wat... hmmm.... recently i was confuse abt love.. wat is love abt actually? sometime think tat wanna have a relationship but when i come to previous love story feel tat some kind of feeling tat i cant explain it... haiz... maybe is dowan go back to the situation again n scare will go back to the situation again....